My situation at the moment: Temperance
This card stands for balance, moderation, patience, purpose.
It’s about recovering your life back into a flow, to get it back into order and balance, with this retreat I am really doing this right now. I have already learned to be patient as the card suggests, which I would also confirm to be true.
Furthermore this card also reflects higher learning. It says: You are learning a great deal where you are now and are at peace with what you are doing – it is all coming together well. Your inner voice is guiding you to the right outcome, and you are patiently listening and following.
Exactly! I can feel this. What a nice confirmation.
Ok, let’s go on. My card for my challenge: Death ☠️
Haha. I knew it. Let’s see what it says: endings, change, transformation, transition. Couldn’t depict it better!
It says even more: After a period of pause and reflection with The Hanged Man (another tarot card, which I actually had in a drawing before), the Death card symbolizes the end of a major phase or aspect of your life that you realize is no longer serving you, opening up the possibility of something far more valuable and essential (YES!).
You must close one door to open another (YES!).
You need to put the past behind you and part ways, ready to embrace new opportunities and possibilities (YES!). It may be difficult to let go of the past, but you will soon see its importance and the promise of renewal and transformation. Thank god!
Furthermore it goes on like this: Death teaches you to let go of outworn and outgrown ways of life and to move forward from them. This is a perfect card to break a bad habit or pattern of behavior. See this as a time to cut out excess and let go of what is unnecessary for your life. Purge the old belongings, memories and baggage that are getting in your way.
And I couldn’t agree more, maybe I got this card, because I chose to move from Hamburg to Crete, because I chose to turn around my business about 180 degrees 😉 and while doing so I need to let go of a lot of old habits and things, and people I have loooooong outgrown. Hell yes to new beginnings !
Well as you can see I love this whole card drawing thing.
Let’s go on to the best part, the solution.
My solution is this: The world.
It’s the last card in the deck and I couldn’t be happier. It says: Completion, integration, accomplishment, travel.
Furthermore the card describes:
Everything has come together, and you are in the right place, doing the right thing, achieving what you have envisioned. You feel whole and complete.
Now, The World card invites you to reflect on your journey, honor your achievements, and tune into your spiritual lessons. Celebrate your successes and bask in the joy of having brought your goals to fruition. All the triumphs and tribulations along your path have made you into the strong, wise, more experienced person you are now. Express gratitude for what you have created and harvested.
And this is so important. We tend to skip this step. Never skip this step. See what you have achieved and honor it BIG TIME. This is also healing, coming back to my original intention for today. Seeing what you have achieved and honoring it is healing, no matter where you stand….
The next card reading I did was not so easy. I used the inner compass card set to answer the following question: what is there still that needs to be healed? I picked the card “Open Doors”.
When I read the card my heart started hurting, especially when this sentence appeared: “you do not need to struggle to get what belongs to you.” And I felt it so clear and so profound, the struggle. I still do need to struggle to get what I want, this sentence is such a big belief sentence of mine, that still to this day is stuck inside of me even with a lot of mindset work in this regard. So I started investigating into this and the root cause of it all.
This all started when as a kid I only always wanted to have time for myself, and also time for adventure and exploring. I loved to go and get out into the woods and endlessly go out and explore new path or build homes and so on. The problem was that I was born with a lot of allergies, with food allergies and hey fever and so on, with neurodermatitis that turned into asthma etc. My body was weak, and I had to go to many doctors every week to get checked, to get new medicine, to get injections etc…. I didn’t have much time to explore and when I did I often got my allergy and had to stay at home. I thought it was all very unfair and I felt like I had to struggle so much just to get out there and play. When I am writing this tears stream down my face from all the pain the little Jasmin had to go through, and I just want to embrace her and tell her it’s ok my dear. One day you will be clearing all of your body issues and you will be fine, go out there and play no matter what. I love you 💕 now I know where all those struggles came from, as my energy coming into a human body was just too high of a frequency to bare (more on this another time!).
This experience stuck so much with me that even after I managed to heal all my body issues I still have the feeling that I need to struggle to get what belongs to me. Time to heal this as well. Through theta healing I got rid of my old belief and instead implemented this new sentence given by the divine:
”when I am in flow, everything that belongs to me automatically comes to me.”
And then the sun came shining through the window. What a blessing 🙏🏼
And I noticed today that there are multiple ways and little things that are a part of healing like:
1. Sun rays on your skin
2. Time, endless time
3. A real deep inhale, and a deep exhale
4. Feeling your heart, also when it’s hurting, because then you know it’s still there. Appreciate every feeling.
5. Honoring everything you have achieved so far in your life. That’s more than you might think it is. Trust me.
6. Healing is also appreciating where you are right now and celebrating every step you are taking!
Then this happened; how I met my granddad for the first time:
So that day many more healings happened, but I will only explain my highlight.
I looked through older training material and notes from my theta healing practitioner seminars, because I was guided to do that from the divine. I found one remark from another student, when we were suppose to look for ancestors in the other person. She told me she saw a man, probably my grandad on my fathers side and that he was so sorry that he couldn’t look after me properly and that he loves me.
I asked and decided to go into this, and I asked the creator for help. He explained to me that he can put me in touch with him if I want to. Well for this you must know that my granddad died before I was born and I knew he always wanted to have girls and then he got 2 boys, my father and my uncle. So I ordered to see him and there he came in front of my closed eyes and I could see me as a little kid running towards him and embracing him. He was holding me in his arms saying
“oh my kid, I love you so much. I am so sorry I couldn’t have been there for you more often, but I have been one of your guardian angels from the beginning on and I am so so proud of you.”
I couldn’t stop crying and the tears are still running down my face, while I am writing this. Funnily I have always felt a strong connection to him even though I have never got to meet him in real life. Now I know why, he’s been with me all the time looking after me. It’s been such a healing moment, and I have been seeing him quite often since then.
He wanted to give me 2 virtues that he acquired in his lifetime, and he said I will need them in my next phase. They are loving strength and strong-as-an-ox-trust. I transferred both into my DNA with a technique I know from theta healing. What an honor to meet this wonderful man. I am still very grateful and moved by this experience.